STUD muffin.

So as you all know thigh-high boots are a huge trend for this Fall/Winter and I lucked up and found some to fit my wider calve. Yaay me. Any who, I purchased the black one's pictured from Torrid but I'm not satisfied (am I ever). A couple days later I was e-shopping again and stumbled upon PURPLE KNEE-HIGH BOOTS. I couldn't believe it. Purple is my favorite color of all time. I was instantly ready to exchange the black for purple but then I realized that I wanted to keep my black. So, I'm going to order the purple this weekend and I'm again not satisfied with doing just that; I want to stud them. Yes, I want to go out and buy a be-dazzler, studs and stud them my damn self. And I'm going to do just that.

I just hope I don't ruin them.

dear summer,

I know you gon miss me...

Chicago had a sucky summer this year leaving me confused on what to wear some days. It was frustrating to say the least. BUT now Autumn is here and I couldn't be happier. I love sweaters, boots and rich colors. The falling leaves and cooler winds have always made me happy. Weird I know...

This is one of the last ensembles I put together for summer. It was pretty random and very comfortable. Those sandals unlike any of my other similar styles sandals are very comfy. The dress is a favorites and sadly I've only worn it twice, once this year and once last year. The vest too is a favorite seeing as though I've had it since high school. I love this look and now as I look at the picture its seems as though it was inspired by Fall.

... we had fun together but like all good things you must come to an end.

No More Tawaka!

sigh. I'm anything but pleased with this Ojon shampoo. I'm shocked because I love Ojon products and have never has an issue with them. This shampoo is very different from their other products which are usually very rich and moisturizing. It could be the whole Tawaka line which is supposed to have a higher percentage of ojon oil and tons of antioxidants. Surprisingly this shampoo doubles as a face wash too.

This shampoo contains no silicons, sulfates or parabens which I thought was perfect for me! Sulfate-free shampoos are rare and the ones that acted as my options weren't quite was I was looking for (Giovanni, Burts Bee, TIGI Bed Head, Kenra, ETC.) Just when I gave up hope and was ready to buy my apple cider vinegar I stumbled across the Ojon cleanser. It sucks! It makes my hair feel dry and strips it of all moisture when i use it (that's a characteristic that comes with regular shampoo!) I washed Monday and had to deal with major untangling which annoyed me. The scent was another thing that annoyed me. It was very strong and reeked of cocoa. Even after using my conditioner and leave-ins I was still able to smell the product in my hair.

Therefore, after finishing this product I will NOT being purchasing it again!

product junkie.

My regimen is still a bit shaky BUT it's getting there. I started with tons of product and wasn't exactly sure of how to balance it in a way that makes sense. Since I've yet to get my trim I've been lazing around and being pretty random when it comes to my hair. That will soon change. I hope...

Sunday:
Pre-Poo - PhytoNectar

Monday:
Wash - Ojon Tawaka Ancient Tribal Rejuvenating Cleanser (Sulfate-Free)
Deep Condition - Joico K-Pak Intense Hydrator
Moisturize - Phyto 9 Daily Ultra Nourishing Botanical Cream
Night:
Leave-In - Infusium 23 Moisturology Leave-In Treatment
Seal - Proclaim Natural 7 Oil W/ Olive Oil

Wednesday:
Co-Wash - Herbal Essences Long Term Relationship Conditioner
Moisturize - Phyto 7 Daily Ultra Nourishing Botanical Cream
Night:
Leave-In - Herbal Essences Long Term Relationship Leave-In Split End Protector
Seal - Proclaim Natural 7 Oil W/ Olive Oil

Friday:
Co-Wash - Herbal Essences Long Term Relationship Conditioner
Deep Condition - Joico K-Pak Intense Recontructor
Moisturize - Phyto 9 Daily Ultra Nourishing Botanical Cream
Night:
Leave-In - Infusium 23 Moisturology Leave-In Treatment
Seal - Proclaim Natural 7 Oil W/ Olive Oil

A few of the items pictures are NOT in my solid regimen but I do use them. The Chi Keratin Mist (purple spray bottle) is something that I used just as a little hair pick-me-up. My Ojon Daily Intensive Shine Treatment and TIGI Bed Head Hair Stick are pretty much styling aids. The Hollywood Castor Oil is simple for my ends and the Phyto Supplements are taken by mouth daily.

This is a bit intense to start off with but I think I can do it. Some changes will be coming soon due to a few of the items pictured running a little low and/or me simply not liking a product.

5 inches is NOTHING.

Sadly my first couple of posts will be about my hair. Bear with me. This is the updated length of my hair; I've yet to get it cut. My ends do seem a bit ragged and I hope that when I do get it cut next weekend that I don't lose too much length.

I want to be bra strap length by my birthday (May 15). I don't this that that's too unrealistic of a goal. It's maybe 4 or 5 inches of growth at the most. I can do it!!!

chronicles of my hair.

There had been countless time where I just wanted to pull a Solange and chop my shit off. I didn't do that for two reasons: one, short hair requires much more attention and money to keep up and two, my face is toooo damn long for short hair. My hair has been through so many extremes within the past 3 or 4 years that it's ridiculous. I'll let the pictures speak.



That's me at 14, my hair at it's longest point. PLEASE disregard my Ronald Isley brows!



This is me at 17. Notice my length is pretty much gone. Prior to the color I was heat crazy. I neglected my hair and my length neglected me :(



AND this people is my hair at it's shortest. My friends teased me that entire night claiming that I looked like a missing member of The Beatles.

My updated length will be in an upcoming post.

confessions of a narcissist.

i'm selfish; plain and simple. this blog is centered around me and only me. some may call it narcissistic but i don't. i view it as the online journal of a young woman who's in search of change and new things. it's odd that these changes in me rooted from sucky areas in my life ( my moms health, my lackluster friends, my wack job, men, etc.)

with this blog i plan to showcase my change be it physically or mentally. my sudden selfish demeanor comes from me wanting better myself in anyway possible. i've learned that i can't focus solely on me when i'm dwelling on a one-sided friendship or holding grudges that only lead to my own tears and frustration. i'm letting go and while that doesn't mean that i'm going to cut myself off completely from the world i do plan to dedicate more energy to myself. had i been spending less time wondering about this guy and that guy or offering apologies that weren't due i'd be better off as a person. or at least i think so.

so, here it is, my blog. note that while it is about me some of the tips dealing with hair, weight loss and fashion can definitely be incorporated into your life.